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Memory

by Nathalie Boisard-Beudin

In the wooden halls of memory, I seek an escape, banging on doors that will not let me in or out anymore. I started the construction of that mighty manor house some years ago at the suggestion of a therapist: I was having problems sorting out my thoughts at the time, confused about who I might be and why some unpleasant things happened to me. It was meant to store the bits of knowledge I’d scraped along and which I thought of as being important at the time as well as holding my repressed secrets safe. So I went along with the notion, sorting and compartmenting the memories as I built the gothic construction around them, room after room, stairways after secret passages, careful in the way I kept them well apart lest they meet and mingle, breed or even gang upon me. However, while I thought they were my captives, they in time closed all the doors on me - one after the other - and I am left wandering empty corridors, begging for scraps of light, of warmth while people and places around me gradually lose their names, their faces, their scents. Now the only thing I really want is to fly away.

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Nathalie Boisard-Beudin, whose full catalog is here, is French but currently lives in Rome, Italy. Most of her writing is done in English, her second – and working – language. She works as in-house lawyer for the European Space Agency and has published micro-stories in the multi national anthology Wonderful World of Worders.

11 comments:

Leatherdykeuk said...

Beautiful piece indeed.

anthonynorth said...

This seems to me to be both a building and the inner mind. Beautiful interplay with imagery.

Amias said...

This is past amazing ... you the captive, became the slave ... I truly enjoyed this read ...

Regina Marie said...

This is great Nathalie...an enjoyable read-

SandyCarlson said...

This makes me think of Poe and his mansions of the mind. The way around the house can be strange and difficult.

Anonymous said...

Great stories, and hard to believe you got so much in six sentences.

Jennifer said...

This is really powerful, Nathalie.

Joe said...

A great six. I left a comment at, well, 6 this morning but it didn't show up. Guess I was too sleepy. Superbly written and well worth many reads.

Melody said...

Very powerful six. Great work!

spacedlaw said...

Thank you all for your kind comments.

Anonymous said...

Like it.